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injection of meat on concrete skin
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I'm sitting inside the bowls of this giant mettalic worm
that speeds me off my hometown at three hundred miles per hour;
It feeds on us, it carries us like virus transports the illness. And then it spits us
Here i go, alongside a hundred more, to abuse another town
until i get abused or expeled by that town's anticorps
Looking out the window everything is fast forward: cars, trees, people, animals.
Just blured spots with life of their own, going around to what ever makes them go around.
Left back everything i had, a house, a wife, a kid, a car, a mortage, a loan, a lover
but as Moe at the bar once said:
everything is nothin' and nothin' is everything
What the hell did he meant by that? Why the hell did i think of that?
that speeds me off my hometown at three hundred miles per hour;
It feeds on us, it carries us like virus transports the illness. And then it spits us
Here i go, alongside a hundred more, to abuse another town
until i get abused or expeled by that town's anticorps
Looking out the window everything is fast forward: cars, trees, people, animals.
Just blured spots with life of their own, going around to what ever makes them go around.
Left back everything i had, a house, a wife, a kid, a car, a mortage, a loan, a lover
but as Moe at the bar once said:
everything is nothin' and nothin' is everything
What the hell did he meant by that? Why the hell did i think of that?
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Lazyness vs actual work
2 min read
Today i feel like any other day, bored to death (due to my lack of action), mad about the state my life is ( due to my lack of action), and ultimetly alone (due to my lack of action)...and i don't seem to find the reason why (due to my lack of action?).
One question that comes to my mind every single day: Is it all worth?
All my actions end up in vacuum...i try to educate myself in areas that at some point during my life, made me interested (drawing, vector, photomanipulation, etc...)and then it comes to my mind: why bother?
is this self pitty, pure lazyness, a simple (and i do mean simpl~e) excuse to stop and feel sorry about ourselfs?
The fact that i don't have someone special in my life, someone worth fighting for, worth living for, worth dying for (i feel quite drasticx today) makes me fall on my knees and succumb to inaction thru constant mental masturbation?
We all need somebody, we are all social animals, we have the selfish need to be loved...if we don't have someone, we freeze.
We freeze and think about the "what ifs" and about the "has beens"...we don't act.
we don't feel like doing shit
FUCK man, The person that i mostly hate his me...and i simply can't get rid of him.
One question that comes to my mind every single day: Is it all worth?
All my actions end up in vacuum...i try to educate myself in areas that at some point during my life, made me interested (drawing, vector, photomanipulation, etc...)and then it comes to my mind: why bother?
is this self pitty, pure lazyness, a simple (and i do mean simpl~e) excuse to stop and feel sorry about ourselfs?
The fact that i don't have someone special in my life, someone worth fighting for, worth living for, worth dying for (i feel quite drasticx today) makes me fall on my knees and succumb to inaction thru constant mental masturbation?
We all need somebody, we are all social animals, we have the selfish need to be loved...if we don't have someone, we freeze.
We freeze and think about the "what ifs" and about the "has beens"...we don't act.
we don't feel like doing shit
FUCK man, The person that i mostly hate his me...and i simply can't get rid of him.
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